Well I got a new job at the new Wendys here in Mesquite. I'm excited but nervous. I keep telling myself that it will be a nice new start for me although new beginnings are always scary but good. You can only imagine the nervousness and intrepidation of starting with new bosses, the regret and disappoinment of leaving behind my education, and the mixed feelings of leaving behind my friends and people I know at work, and the difficulty with change and new things,but it will be a good new start and I need to not focus on the past.
   Im getting a new nephew this week and I am very excited about that and hope and pray that all goes well this time. So far everything is going well. The lord knows I cant handle much more trauma in my life right now. (At least I hope he understands.)
      A very good friend of mine has a birthday tomorrow and my thoughts have been being sent her way. I love her so much and what a positive example she is in my life.
      I am thankful for my therapy groups Ive grown and progressed a lot. I just want to be happy when some days I really have to just sigh. I have a lot of days when Im not feeling good, but those happy days are so filled with fun, joy, and fullfilment. My favorite moments are when I feel at peace.
 Ive been through a lot in life and Ive been diagnosed with a lot of tough disorders. Maybe one day I can write about my journey, but for right now I am so thankful for those peaceful moments when they come and for positive people in my life.
    I miss my Grandma Vera and my mom dearly, and am trying to work through my grief. My mom would be cheering me on with my new job right now and giving me the support and encouraging words I need to hear. I know she is from heaven.
   Right now I am good, but feeling a little blue and writing usually helps me figure out whats wrong. There is so much more I want to say, but better stop for now. Have a good night.